My last day here-This is my story. AMA

[Regretfulman]

Just a quick update guys. I have to confess that I relapsed and met an FL today. For full transparency and accountability.

Addiction kicked in and was horny for a SYT FL. Went to dome 1 and booked. When I met her I realised she was an absolute landmine. Her face got damn bad acne scarring, like legit fking bad, you see on the street also chua tio. This was my mistake number 1, should have just turned around and left. But for some reason enter alrdy i felt trapped. So i told the OKT go for 1 shot instead of prearranged 2.


Before session she start to spray some deodorant on herself, like those febreze ns kind. Fking toxic smell. The funny thing was, I couldnt get hard at all. Thats how bad it was. I honestly got no mood at all. Lets put it this way, you pay me $200 to bonk her i also reject. Free also dw. This was my mistake number 2. Wanted to just put on my clothes and fuck off. Just sua the $150.

But no, after solo masturbating for 20mins and closing my eyes fantasizing about Arina Hashimoto(lol), i eventually did the deed, which safe to say, was the worst fucking bonk of my life.

Once done, i never felt so low, disgusted and dirty about myself. Like how the fuck did i even bring myself to do her. The standard is like those $50 type for banglas on a budget. Worst part is when I was eating lunch later, still got her smell lingering. I legit gagged on my food and felt like throwing up.

I guess I totally deserved this experience. The universe wanted to teach me a lesson for good. Honestly, if I got up and left it would be the most perfect situation. She gets the $150 without doing any work(consider it charity) and I get to fuck outta that place without being traumatized (which I still am).

I will forever remember this experience and will probably serve as a deterrence in the future when the urge kicks in to book another FL.

I just want to say that I am disappointed in myself for relapsing, and for letting down the bros who PM-ed me and encouraged me to never give up. I always knew the healing journey would be treacherous and difficult- but I will persevere to the end and keep on fighting the good fight.

Dont ask/Pm me about the identity of the girl. Shes young and obviously doing this due to economic hardship so idw to break her rice bowl. Anyways I alrdy give enough hints. If you guys book her too bad - other bros also never warn me of this landmine, still dare give good reviews lol

[Regretfulman]

[PART 2]

Unexpectedly continuing here because I cant sleep.

You know Im not even angry at her for being a landmine. You know like how some samsters get angry over wasting their time and money? In fact, i genuinely feel fucking sorry for her. She was damn young and inexperienced. Like when she try bbbj me she literally just put my limp dick in her mouth, no suction at all and never use tongue. Can tell she was forced into this line due to economic hardship. I really feel fucking heartbroken for her to have her innocence robbed at such a young age. When bonk her that time she completely dead fish, can tell she fking hated it and didnt want to do it all.

I felt fucking bad that I was disgusted at her severe acne scarring, when it wasnt her fault at all. She probably couldnt afford a good diet/medical treatment and the emotional stress of being in this line probably took a toll on her as well. Im sure nobody if given a choice would have wanted to look like that.

The worst part of this whole ordeal wasnt my bad experience. It wasnt the fact that the place was a dimly lit unsanitary place straight out of a horror movie. Nor was it because of the fact that her photos were heavily edited and her face was scarred irl. No, it was the fact that I had so many opportunities to leave and get the fuck out, but i didnt. It was like as if the universe wanted to give me a second chance, and that I fated to meet a landmine today. Not as if I met a $1000/night top tier bombshell escort who seduced me the moment I walked in.

I simply fell for the sunk-cost fallacy, and wanted to get it over with to "get my moneys worth". Ironically, i would have been much better if I just got out and spared myself this traumatizing ordeal.

Fuck, I absolutely loathe and hate myself for what happened today. No words can describe how I felt when I left. Felt absolutely condemned, ashamed and disgusted at myself. Worst part is got the fucking smell lingering, damn gaowei. Almost feel like vomiting typing it now.

Sorry for ranting. Just very emotional right now and needed to rant. Fuck I hate my fucking life. Maybe I should just spend money on therapy. $150 to heal myself instead of traumatizing myself KNN

[catlord]

Lol dude, chill. Having a strong sex drive doesn't mean you're addicted. Let's be clear, are you addicted to fucking FLs, or you just have a high sex drive in general? If you fuck real girls yet you still can't help but fuck FLs, then yeah you're addicted to FLs and that's a problem. But if you go to FLs only because you can't get real girls that you like and you really want to have sex, then that's totally normal. No matter how religious or holy you are, sex drive is a healthy bodily function you can't escape from, especially as a young male. You need to have a healthy relationship with your sex drive, or else you will have internal conflicts like this your whole life.

Btw sorry to hear of the bad experience. This is why GL was my top chiong spot. The quality of FL can vary a lot. At least in GL you already know the place is ok, and you get to see the girls first before choosing one.

If you're really so disgusted by FLs, then go use tinder and find yourself some real girls. In the mean time don't demonize your own sexual urges. It's a bodily function you can't ever turn off.

[leakypipes]

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

[PART 2]

Unexpectedly continuing here because I cant sleep.

You know Im not even angry at her for being a landmine. You know like how some samsters get angry over wasting their time and money? In fact, i genuinely feel fucking sorry for her. She was damn young and inexperienced. Like when she try bbbj me she literally just put my limp dick in her mouth, no suction at all and never use tongue. Can tell she was forced into this line due to economic hardship. I really feel fucking heartbroken for her to have her innocence robbed at such a young age. When bonk her that time she completely dead fish, can tell she fking hated it and didnt want to do it all.

I felt fucking bad that I was disgusted at her severe acne scarring, when it wasnt her fault at all. She probably couldnt afford a good diet/medical treatment and the emotional stress of being in this line probably took a toll on her as well. Im sure nobody if given a choice would have wanted to look like that.

The worst part of this whole ordeal wasnt my bad experience. It wasnt the fact that the place was a dimly lit unsanitary place straight out of a horror movie. Nor was it because of the fact that her photos were heavily edited and her face was scarred irl. No, it was the fact that I had so many opportunities to leave and get the fuck out, but i didnt. It was like as if the universe wanted to give me a second chance, and that I fated to meet a landmine today. Not as if I met a $1000/night top tier bombshell escort who seduced me the moment I walked in.

I simply fell for the sunk-cost fallacy, and wanted to get it over with to "get my moneys worth". Ironically, i would have been much better if I just got out and spared myself this traumatizing ordeal.

Fuck, I absolutely loathe and hate myself for what happened today. No words can describe how I felt when I left. Felt absolutely condemned, ashamed and disgusted at myself. Worst part is got the fucking smell lingering, damn gaowei. Almost feel like vomiting typing it now.

Sorry for ranting. Just very emotional right now and needed to rant. Fuck I hate my fucking life. Maybe I should just spend money on therapy. $150 to heal myself instead of traumatizing myself KNN

From my previous replies to you, you should know now that I am not surprised at what happened. I am not surprised that you relapsed, or the feelings you had after the session.

This is your reality now for the rest of your life based on your present choice to quit the commercial scene totally. Learn to deal with it. Go find something else that is meaningful to do. Maybe that will take your mind off the withdrawal.

[dieth1234]

I can feel you. I met an auntie pretending to be syt.

I gave her chance and say just normal message. I paid in full.
But she is super disgusting. Message me for 10 mins and walked away.
I waited for her to come back to continue but she never.
End up i waited for 30 mins and left.

This is the last draw for me. I am kind but not an idiot.
After that incident, I stop SLG.

I stop because I pay money to make myself happy and NOT to get frustrated.
The quality drops like shit in 2022. Not sure whether the quality improve in 2023.

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

[PART 2]

Unexpectedly continuing here because I cant sleep.

You know Im not even angry at her for being a landmine. You know like how some samsters get angry over wasting their time and money? In fact, i genuinely feel fucking sorry for her. She was damn young and inexperienced. Like when she try bbbj me she literally just put my limp dick in her mouth, no suction at all and never use tongue. Can tell she was forced into this line due to economic hardship. I really feel fucking heartbroken for her to have her innocence robbed at such a young age. When bonk her that time she completely dead fish, can tell she fking hated it and didnt want to do it all.

I felt fucking bad that I was disgusted at her severe acne scarring, when it wasnt her fault at all. She probably couldnt afford a good diet/medical treatment and the emotional stress of being in this line probably took a toll on her as well. Im sure nobody if given a choice would have wanted to look like that.

The worst part of this whole ordeal wasnt my bad experience. It wasnt the fact that the place was a dimly lit unsanitary place straight out of a horror movie. Nor was it because of the fact that her photos were heavily edited and her face was scarred irl. No, it was the fact that I had so many opportunities to leave and get the fuck out, but i didnt. It was like as if the universe wanted to give me a second chance, and that I fated to meet a landmine today. Not as if I met a $1000/night top tier bombshell escort who seduced me the moment I walked in.

I simply fell for the sunk-cost fallacy, and wanted to get it over with to "get my moneys worth". Ironically, i would have been much better if I just got out and spared myself this traumatizing ordeal.

Fuck, I absolutely loathe and hate myself for what happened today. No words can describe how I felt when I left. Felt absolutely condemned, ashamed and disgusted at myself. Worst part is got the fucking smell lingering, damn gaowei. Almost feel like vomiting typing it now.

Sorry for ranting. Just very emotional right now and needed to rant. Fuck I hate my fucking life. Maybe I should just spend money on therapy. $150 to heal myself instead of traumatizing myself KNN

[WILHD]

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

[PART 2]

Unexpectedly continuing here because I cant sleep.

You know Im not even angry at her for being a landmine. You know like how some samsters get angry over wasting their time and money? In fact, i genuinely feel fucking sorry for her. She was damn young and inexperienced. Like when she try bbbj me she literally just put my limp dick in her mouth, no suction at all and never use tongue. Can tell she was forced into this line due to economic hardship. I really feel fucking heartbroken for her to have her innocence robbed at such a young age. When bonk her that time she completely dead fish, can tell she fking hated it and didnt want to do it all.

I felt fucking bad that I was disgusted at her severe acne scarring, when it wasnt her fault at all. She probably couldnt afford a good diet/medical treatment and the emotional stress of being in this line probably took a toll on her as well. Im sure nobody if given a choice would have wanted to look like that.

The worst part of this whole ordeal wasnt my bad experience. It wasnt the fact that the place was a dimly lit unsanitary place straight out of a horror movie. Nor was it because of the fact that her photos were heavily edited and her face was scarred irl. No, it was the fact that I had so many opportunities to leave and get the fuck out, but i didnt. It was like as if the universe wanted to give me a second chance, and that I fated to meet a landmine today. Not as if I met a $1000/night top tier bombshell escort who seduced me the moment I walked in.

I simply fell for the sunk-cost fallacy, and wanted to get it over with to "get my moneys worth". Ironically, i would have been much better if I just got out and spared myself this traumatizing ordeal.

Fuck, I absolutely loathe and hate myself for what happened today. No words can describe how I felt when I left. Felt absolutely condemned, ashamed and disgusted at myself. Worst part is got the fucking smell lingering, damn gaowei. Almost feel like vomiting typing it now.

Sorry for ranting. Just very emotional right now and needed to rant. Fuck I hate my fucking life. Maybe I should just spend money on therapy. $150 to heal myself instead of traumatizing myself KNN

You look more like you are under emotional distress than FL addiction. The most important is not to beat yourself up. There is no failure, cycles are hard to break especially if you don't try to replace them. The fact you failed is the proof that you are a functioning human and not a psychopath. Try to understand your human nature to change rather than trying to break it.

What I mean is, don't think hard will, cold turkey and simple abstinence is the good way to go. Even if you succeed, it will be at the price of willpower that you could use elsewhere. Instead of living like a cripple, try to find a healthy replacement. Find a woman you will love, even if she's not the beautiful girl on Earth. Having female love and support will make your addiction go away immediately, or rather, you will get what you look for and can't find with FLs. Engaging yourself is hard because there is no going back, but in your case you should realize this is the best solution.

[lianbeng]

lianbeng knows some church pastors fuck their female members lah!

[sbwow]

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

Went to dome 1 and booked. When I met her I realised she was an absolute landmine. Her face got damn bad acne scarring, like legit fking bad, you see on the street also chua tio. This was my mistake number 1, should have just turned around and left. But for some reason enter alrdy i felt trapped. So i told the OKT go for 1 shot instead of prearranged 2.

Should have brought a paper bag for her head.
If she ask, tell her you like to roleplay police and thief.
Didn't mention anything bad about body, guess you can still make do.

[Regretfulman]

Originally Posted by sbwow

Should have brought a paper bag for her head.
If she ask, tell her you like to roleplay police and thief.
Didn't mention anything bad about body, guess you can still make do.

Bro I FUCKING pissed now already. Saw a comment in dome 1 good bonks thread saying how shes a gem and looks better in real life. KNN i click on his account and its a new account. Post history all from the same stable. Confirm is the account belongs to the okt.

I fucking sio already. Should i just expose him and the girl? KNN never ever trust reviews from dome 1.

[Regretfulman]

Fucking hell. Got another comment on the same girl also give good review. Account also new and only post girls from the same stable. Motherfucker really shameless dare to promote such landmine.

[sbwow]

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

Bro I FUCKING pissed now already. Saw a comment in dome 1 good bonks thread saying how shes a gem and looks better in real life. KNN i click on his account and its a new account. Post history all from the same stable. Confirm is the account belongs to the okt.

I fucking sio already. Should i just expose him and the girl? KNN never ever trust reviews from dome 1.

Since you are intending to quit, it's unnecessary work to expose.

As the saying goes, mix with the right company and you will perform similar acts together likewise the same for bad weather friends. Similar analogy would be to avoid reading too many posts on sex forum to avoid overexposure. Unless someone has really good self control, but at times it still lingers in the mind.

[xels]

since everyone is giving TS advice on handling emotions and lust, i'll give some advice of another nature.

your perceived value for $150 is probably a SYT, great boobs, white skin, and ultra GFE. while this might have been possible maybe a decade ago, things have changed.

1. Demand is now higher than supply for good bonks. Prices go up accordingly.

2. Photoshop / meitu / pp / whatever picture editing app techniques have gotten better. A 35 year old auntie can look like 18 year old uni freshman.

3. Such crappy looking WLs take advantage of the singaporean men's kindness or horniness, whichever way you perceive it, because most singaporean men dont reject at the door / or want to pay rejection fee. They boldly hang up edited photos and wait - hence the term landmines.

My advice to you TS along these 3 lines.

a. You want a great bonk, pay more. Think along the lines of $250 - $300. However, dont be a dick and overpay. Either this, or adjust your expectations. You're not in Thailand or any other country where bonking is cheap.

b. Learn to do your due diligence. Sift for reviews and develop a process/procedure. For example, i blacklist some sites which I know are mostly photo-edited girls. I don't ever engage WLs from those sites even if the pictures are fking chio. Over the course of a few experiences, understand what you like best during massages/sex and target those experiences instead of targeting girls by looks. You'll enjoy the session better. Trust me.

c. Don't be a nice guy. If the girl is fking ugly, just pay the rejection fee and leave. You can come back here and bitch about it.

[Regretfulman]

Originally Posted by xels

since everyone is giving TS advice on handling emotions and lust, i'll give some advice of another nature.

your perceived value for $150 is probably a SYT, great boobs, white skin, and ultra GFE. while this might have been possible maybe a decade ago, things have changed.

1. Demand is now higher than supply for good bonks. Prices go up accordingly.

2. Photoshop / meitu / pp / whatever picture editing app techniques have gotten better. A 35 year old auntie can look like 18 year old uni freshman.

3. Such crappy looking WLs take advantage of the singaporean men's kindness or horniness, whichever way you perceive it, because most singaporean men dont reject at the door / or want to pay rejection fee. They boldly hang up edited photos and wait - hence the term landmines.

My advice to you TS along these 3 lines.

a. You want a great bonk, pay more. Think along the lines of $250 - $300. However, dont be a dick and overpay. Either this, or adjust your expectations. You're not in Thailand or any other country where bonking is cheap.

b. Learn to do your due diligence. Sift for reviews and develop a process/procedure. For example, i blacklist some sites which I know are mostly photo-edited girls. I don't ever engage WLs from those sites even if the pictures are fking chio. Over the course of a few experiences, understand what you like best during massages/sex and target those experiences instead of targeting girls by looks. You'll enjoy the session better. Trust me.

c. Don't be a nice guy. If the girl is fking ugly, just pay the rejection fee and leave. You can come back here and bitch about it.

I agree with what you said. But my expectations for $150 is just passable, i.e. can get hard. Not some landmine that u wont bonk even if free

[syncrossed]

Originally Posted by dieth1234

I can feel you. I met an auntie pretending to be syt.

I gave her chance and say just normal message. I paid in full.
But she is super disgusting. Message me for 10 mins and walked away.
I waited for her to come back to continue but she never.
End up i waited for 30 mins and left.

This is the last draw for me. I am kind but not an idiot.
After that incident, I stop SLG.

I stop because I pay money to make myself happy and NOT to get frustrated.
The quality drops like shit in 2022. Not sure whether the quality improve in 2023.

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

Bro I FUCKING pissed now already. Saw a comment in dome 1 good bonks thread saying how shes a gem and looks better in real life. KNN i click on his account and its a new account. Post history all from the same stable. Confirm is the account belongs to the okt.

I fucking sio already. Should i just expose him and the girl? KNN never ever trust reviews from dome 1.

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

Fucking hell. Got another comment on the same girl also give good review. Account also new and only post girls from the same stable. Motherfucker really shameless dare to promote such landmine.

Dont be penny wise pound foolish.

GTFO from the shithole dome 1 filled with photoshop bait, fugly saggy duds, and fake FRs. You must be new to the scene if you believe every FR in the dome 1 FR thread Could you get passable bonks in dome 1? Sure, with a lot of luck, or a lot of time, effort, experience to sift out the truthful FRs from the fakes.

Top up a bit more in dome 3 and u will be able to fuck slim, chio, busty high GFE/PSE viet/ang mo syts to ur hearts content.

Not saying that dome 3 has no duds, but duds are an exception to the norm in dome 3, while dome 1 is more of a mixed bag.

If you need recommendations, just check my post history. No need to thank me

[syncrossed]

Originally Posted by WILHD

You look more like you are under emotional distress than FL addiction. The most important is not to beat yourself up. There is no failure, cycles are hard to break especially if you don't try to replace them. The fact you failed is the proof that you are a functioning human and not a psychopath. Try to understand your human nature to change rather than trying to break it.

What I mean is, don't think hard will, cold turkey and simple abstinence is the good way to go. Even if you succeed, it will be at the price of willpower that you could use elsewhere. Instead of living like a cripple, try to find a healthy replacement. Find a woman you will love, even if she's not the beautiful girl on Earth. Having female love and support will make your addiction go away immediately, or rather, you will get what you look for and can't find with FLs. Engaging yourself is hard because there is no going back, but in your case you should realize this is the best solution.

TS's over the top, pretentious writing style feels like a troll, but I'll give him the benefit of the doubt here

Agree with the message here that TS is waging a lost cause. And that's because everyone needs human contact whether its sexual or non-sexual. In this case, TS needs to fuck and experience physical intimacy, but puts sex on a moral pedestal, thinking that there is a "right" kind of sex to have.

He will probably struggle until he accepts that fucking a FL and commercial sex are trivial matters, and learn to focus on the big picture.