[Dawen90]

Bro I think many ppl here are telling you things for your own good ba... Some have been there and done that already, so good to hear out their point of view..

You seem to be trying to justify your own points to yourself, which I feel is already a red flag in any decision you make in life..

End of the day.. your life is yours and it sounds like you have already made your mind up on what you want to do...

So all I can say is... The choices you make in life will define you.. so please do make them carefully, do take time to read the views of the many brothers here.. in a sense they care for your well-being as well..

I wish you happiness and joy always.